It is more than just a reverie

It is the 20th of January, already. Clock is ticking, and time is flying faster each day and before you know it, February is approaching. Which also means the day when I will leave to Australia is getting closer.

It is more than just a silly reverie of mine, the whole furthering my studies abroad thing. I am forever grateful. You know how people always say you don't get everything you want and how in life we win some, we lose some? I might have lost those scholarships to the UK, but I am very much glad I am heading to Australia soon, and getting into the university that I desire, University of Melbourne.

Sometimes I feel like there is a very thin veil that separates gratitude and ingratitude. It is so easy to stray away from being thankful and to fall into the pernicious pit of thanklessness. Because I think we humans always yearn for more and better things in life, and it is really ambiguous how these desires can subconsciously evoke a greater greed that we humans naturally have inside of us. And thus from being humble and grateful we gradually ask for more, complain excessively and forget to appreciate what we have.

This is me speaking from my own experience and I continuously thank God for He has never failed to remind me to be grateful from time to time, of course through His tests and tribulations. I might have had my days when I fail to see that very thin veil, but I never intend so, and I hope that this very thin veil will stay apparent to me for as long as I live.

Now on a less serious note, Melbourne is awaiting and to be honest it is as exciting as it gets! Nonetheless the fact that I am terrible at packing remains unchanged. I have been spending my days at home deciding which clothes or shoes or bags to bring and which to leave behind and seriously this particular activity of mine has been nothing but heart-breaking. I guess being emotionally attached to things has its price.

JPA has yet informed me my flight date so I can't really say anything for sure. But it will be around mid-February. I look forward to meeting new people and taking bazillions of pictures and I am glad that I will have this blog of mine to tell the tale. For whatever it's worth, I think Australia will be amazing.

I might not know what is going to happen or how events are going to unfold but I hope at the end of the day I'd tell myself, I wouldn't want to have it in any other way.

For smiling is what you can do the least (:

-Filzah.R